what stupid i am

I cant tell him more. My heart is so beating when I tell him to others. I just miss him like hell. I've loved him since 2 years ago. I never mind if i can fall deeply into him. I just like him when he played his guitar and he sang with his beautiful voice then he saw me and smile. I just like him when he made a joke words then we were laugh together. I like him so much till I make a song title "My deep inside" for him. Ya, I just like him firstly. Then the odd feeling come surely. I know he hates me so much like his bestfriend. But what stupid i am. I still get him closer and closer. Daaamnnn!! I just like a girl who walk in the market without clothe i think. Haha. When Every girl in my school like him. love him. And wanna get closer to him. I am so jealous. But nothing to do. Maybe, he knows that I have a special feeling for him. then, Dammnnn!! He asks me what I feel in that time. then, I answer his question. wht a stupid girl i am. and i hope, he has a same feeling but it's so impossible. My feeling says that he loves one girl. I dont know why my feeling says like that. and Finally I ask him. and yap! My feeling is so right absolutely. And the other hand, She loves him too. gyahahaha once again WHAT A STUPID I AM.. But he never knows wht i feel in that time, and he still hates me till now altough I've tried to make a warm situation. He still hates me * I am sorry for my broken english*